I wrote this poem today:
I Found My Little Girl
There was, once upon a time, my little girl so amiable and nimble
climbing trees, skipping rocks, running through the day
"Look, Daddy and Mommy, I made you this."
she'd say
A missing tooth, a scratched up knee
stitches, bandages and casts
a tromp through the creek, overturning rocks
in search of obscured crawdads
Riding bikes, sweaty face
prayers in bed, a sweet embrace
Bedtime stories, stay-up parties
hair-dos, massages
pedicures and manicures
laughter and surprises
A kind word, a kiss on the cheek
a tattered skirt and stained up sneaks
Days, weeks, months, years
all too quickly flee
holding hands and bear hugs
now distant memories
Where could my little girl be?
I reach for her hand
but get a cold shoulder
and a "Maybe later, Mom."
oh, how I'd long to hold her
"Want to play a game?" I ask
"Maybe later, Mom."
"Is this the standard response to all?"
"Maybe later, Mom."
Ipod, music, ooVoo and Skype
talking all day and into the night
"Time for bed, and turn that thing off."
a look of disgust and dismay
"Do as you're told, young lady
otherwise, I'll take it away."
"Can I go here? Can I go there?"
anywhere but home, it seems
I catch a glimpse of her in the mirror
she's ready to spread her wings
Like a butterfly, she emerges
from the chrysalis of love held so tight
security, confidence
and beauty take flight
Determination, goals
dreaming about tomorrow
reaching for new heights
wanting to be let go
I stand on the side lines
with guidance, love, correction
cheering her on
with discipline and affection
She's growing up, pulling away
searching for who she is
she looks within, stands on the Rock
and knows that she is His
With prayer and perseverance
patience and trust
I look to the One
who is faithful and just
Take her and mold her, I pray
shape her and form her
with talents and unique gifts
and Truth of Your Word
Let her be one of a kind
let her be free from this world
let her shine as a light
let her be transformed
At His feet, in humble service
walking in love and liberty
making her stamp on this world
that's where my little girl will be!
*sniff,sniff* I'm not ready for all that. <3
ReplyDeleteWow Jessica. That was amazing. It's very hard watching them spread their wings, and I am talking about my boys. Can't imagine how much harder it would be if they were girls. I guess I'll find out soon enough with Ava. The great thing is that God hears a mother's prayers. So keep praying for her, and keep leaning on God! And remember, that regardless of what's going on on the outside, there is nothing like a mother's hug, on the the inside. Love you and praying for you!!
ReplyDeleteThanks for the encouragement, Laura. Yes, hold onto the next several precious years with Ava! So thankful to have God by my side!
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